Kv's Simple Life.

Hello.it's full moon again

2011-09-12T19:23:00.005+08:00

It's the 15th of August in chinese lunar calendar 2011.

The Moon finally reveals a full smiley face, so bright and warm that it glooms and pierce through the linen of dark clouds that shaded the morning sun.

I had anticipated so much for the arrival of this day, when the good old times memories and stories are reminisced together with family.However,this is the first time in my life that I could not have the share of mooncake with my beloved.( I used to wish that I could have one whole piece for myself).This little wish was fulfilled since time has come, but what's the point of watching over the moon alone,swallowing seemingly tasteless mooncake,with an inverted smile hanging on the face? without merry atmosphere.No colorful lanterns hanging around the porch.No boisterous laughter by the youngs. No chatterings.How I miss them.

My day was brighten up when my friends duly obliged a meetup at 10pm to celebrate this day with lantern-walk around the school compound and mooncake sharing.My mood was freaking dampened as the candles went out of stock when I headed to the grocery shop in our school! Lantern ain't a lantern without candle!gosh.A replacement with torchlight? ==

A reminder that I am a grown-up-18-year-old.

Lantern festival/ mooncake festival/ mid-autumn festival is no longer meant only for 'playing fire' and lanterns, it is so significant to a chinese, a loud and clear voice from the bottom of my heart urging me to be back home for a reunion.

Inept as usual, though my body husk can withstand a 10-hour-long journey all the way back home, but holidays is not provided.I could only stand and stare up at the Moon, hoping that it becomes a mirror that reflect my family over there.

Under a moonlit night,a group of ten was in a circle, melodies and chattering broke through the resilient moment.Feeling warm and comfort to be surrounded by the peers, we know deep down how we miss our home,wishing that our family members are watching moon together with us from the far-far-away.

Happy mooncake festival!

it's out

2011-03-24T09:17:00.003+08:00

Hence, the long-awaited day had arrived.Wide awake before 12am.Praying hard with friends.

It's morning! Opened my eyes and online, staring at the watch.

Tried SMS to 15888, nothing worked.

And finally, teacher spoke to me on the phone.It's quite out of expectation, yet unbelievable.

no A- nor B.Straight A's!

However, my result is not excellent enough to fight for scholarship...just praying hard for matriculation.I need to start afresh in a new place.

I must kick off my last-minute-study bad habit, and work harder to pursue my dream.

I am very worried now.seriously.

Glory

2011-03-16T10:06:00.002+08:00

My eyes are always shimmering with the presence of trophies.

They catch my attention.I always told myself, no matter what I must bring back one of them.

Craving so hard for the champion, at least a consolation prize can comfort me.It's better than nothing.

When I was young, whenever the trophies or medals are seen on the stage, I always anticipate for my name to be called.Staring at those glimmering objects, a drawing attraction seems to pull my mind towards them, powerful and haunting, demanding for greatest effort from me.

Like casting a spell on me, I get lost in the glory of calling it mine.Get lost in depression when my name wasn't on the list.Get lost in self-pity when I was just a few marks away from the top winner.

It draws a line between the loser and the winner.Does it mean everything? luck and ability.Both important elements. I used to participate in many drawing competitions.Sometimes nice paintings were not meant to be the top but a consolation prize or vice versa.We can't change the judge, can we? It may be judged as a wonderful masterpiece or an awful scribbling without much efforts by different people.

Now, they still mean to me.It's not just an object but a physical manifestation and a prove of my ability, whether it's painting or sports or music.A form of encouragement and satisfaction that drive me to work harder.A memory that reminds me of the hard time that I had been through.A decoration in a house.Perhaps another cheap chunk of rusting metal that exists in the dark corner to the others.

Significant? Some doubt so.

When catastrophe came, it will be crashed into pieces.

All the so-called-glory is gone within a few seconds.

Currently working in a souvenir shop, a bit sick of looking at the trophies everyday.

No matter how much they are priced, they still worth.

The satisfaction regards to the process and the achievements that will never fade.

Only the person who has been through it will understand how much it means.

Doppelgangers

2011-03-14T17:55:00.003+08:00

One world.

Land and sea.

Mountain and trees.

Countries.

Society.

People.

There are always things that are alike.

Same goal.

Same greed.

Same attitude.

Same car.

Same species.

And isn't it interesting to find somebody resemble u?

I'm excited to meet one who look like me.

Let's pray

2011-03-11T18:46:00.001+08:00

23th of March.

Please be good to me.

Change

2011-03-05T09:20:00.005+08:00

It's has been ages since I last blogged.I admit I am bad at recounting or express myself in words.It was always drawing and music that do the job.Otherwise, I would confide in my friends.

So I have been staying here for one month.*time flies*

What I see:

KL has more handsome boys and hot girls. ==

They know how to speak chinese, but they prefer to speak in cantonese.

Traffic jam is everywhere.

Monorail is much worse than LRT due to its congestion level.

Food is slightly more expensive but still cheaper than in singapore. :D

It's almost a MUST to owe a car for commuting convenience.

Most of the places are not within a walking distance.

More brands are available in the shopping mall here.

I went to see a dentist on a saturday afternoon.They have a long list of appointment too.

I hate it everytime when I have to come here.Imagine the room inside,with all those sharp knife or dentist mirrors, my hair stand with some goosebumps on my skin without receiving instruction from my brain at all. :S

Hate this feeling.

For once I had 2 rows of teeth, arranged neatly side by side.After the changing-teeth-period, some of my milk teeth didn't drop.they are not going to drop after all.The dentist had extracted 2 of my milk teeth to prevent the blockage of other teeth, hence 2 holes remain till today.When I need to do orthodontic treatment, the dentist said I need to go through teeth implant first since each side of my teeth is lacking of 2 teeth.It's gonna cost a bomb. :S

Feeling so sad....why is this happening to me?

no enough permanent teeth, can I still smile properly without my mouth shut?

I really wish I have white and shiny neat teeth.

once in a while

2011-02-06T23:08:00.013+08:00

It was 16 years ago when i was a toddler, my parents brought me here and taught me how to walk and cycle.My memory worked quite late, bet it was around 3 or 4 when I remembered my passion for drawing and painting.

Here I was once again,titiwangsa recreational park in kuala lumpur!

fishing competition

wish i could jump into and get a drift

1 malaysia exercise

lake

Awoke at 6 in the morning, accompanied my aunt to do naturopathic exercises.So I seize this opportunity to walk around, trying to reminisce.Soon we went to timesquare for New Shaolin Temple.The movie was epic and drove the audience into tears.It was heart-wrenching to watch the villagers lost their home in the war and how importance it is to learn from mistakes and turn over a new leaf.

Most thrilling part of today was singing karaoke in CEO.The quality there is great.I could totally hear no sound from other room and the buffet was awesome! they made the food right before us, providing fresh seafood, it was a food haven! my mouth is stuffed with food more than I sing.

here's a quick view:

dessert

It's chinese new year again!

2011-02-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

Just a glimpse,the scene of reunion dinner flashes before our eyes again.

A slight change which are concluded as such:

From spm year to a new year.

From a student to an employee.

From 17 to 18.

From jeans to skirt.

Every year again and again, our relatives start "interrogating" about our school life, how was spm and amazed by how we grow.==

Luckily my brother is the lead this time round.His height was a quantum leap, catching their attention especially when my dad is beside him.

And they speak languages which I could barely understand especially hainanese.

It's really pathetic that even though I am a hainanese but the number of words i know are finger-countable.

Watched green hornet few days ago, and it was totally awesome!
I'm no longer obsessed with jay chou.The action and scenes were epic.Much of visual satisfaction with a pair of 3D spec.

I could say that people nowadays rely heavily on visual materials.Seems like 80% of the movies in cinema are labeled 3D, teenagers captivated by the quality pictures from DSLR.

The wave of modenisation is overwhelming our traditional life.

Even Chinese new year greeting are mostly from texting and email but not cards anymore.

I am not sure what I want yet.Like a boat in the middle of sea, floating up and down and drifted away by the waves and wind that come through.

My thought is always influence by the external sources.Lacking of self-confidence seems to trouble me with no ends.

Shall stop these thinking walking in my mind.

Happy chinese new year to everyone! seize the opportunity of reunion with everybody beside us.:)

Officially 18

2011-01-13T01:16:00.005+08:00

wish I open my eyes bigger and wider

look at the brighter side of the world

understand how the society works

possess what supposed to own

differentiate right or wrong

enlarge the others

diminish myself

put my foot down

learning from every mistakes

i knew i'm not young to make one anymore.

Years ago

2011-01-12T23:26:00.003+08:00

For once, a young woman, panting with sweat oozing from her forehead.Gasping for air, she knew she must be strong and survive her two life.It was a midnight with penetrating chill.She couldn't help with the trembling.Another man, with his fingers crossed, wandering around the corridor.No matter how dark and empty the corridor was, no matter how much he struggle within to overcome the fear of dark, he remained calm.

Soon, there was a baby cry which broke the silence.The spouse huddled in joy and appreciation with the arrival of the baby,with tears of happiness, they started feeding and nurturing the baby.no matter how difficult their life was.no matter how arduous job they did just to make ends meet.they knew it is called a family, and they will support it till the end.

And I hope they always live a wonderful and healthy life.Hope their grown up baby becomes a prominent professional who love her parents more than they love her and make them proud.Wish they to have the best things in their life. :)

Some somber mood huh

2011-01-11T15:40:00.002+08:00

It seemed like I have committed crime when i woke up at noon.How many time do I get the chance to sleep as much? Frankly I did intend to wake up, but the chilly rainy day out there has touched up the comfort with me lying in my soft and warm bed, sweet dream...nice bedsheets smell....and everything falls apart with some eardrum piercing scolding!

They couldn't bear me in sight for one more second.Eye sore huh...I did search for job, but they suggested me to work in KL.Fine.I obeyed them.I have never wanted to idle my holidays away.And in their eyes, I am good for nothing.So before going to kl, this period is devastating.Any moment anyone would shimmer with anger over some trivial matter.=.=

I have had enough of these noise pollution...

Today is 17th years 11 months and 29 days of my life.2 more days to the 18th.

I do not wish this day to come at all...insignificant and agony reminder of the pain that my mum had suffered.What's the point of bringing me into this complicated world? I did not have a choice, did I? call me an accident.I may had imagine how wonderful the life on earth, it was my own fault too.Perhaps with a strong but wrong desire, I succeeded my way to the earth.

So many have started their college life,how I wish I am one of those too.Rotting and perishing at home.I did hope I could work immediately with some income and get whatever I want! A DSLR, a pair grey converse shoes/vans classic shoes, a superior purse...none of them is achieved yet.No job no income.No income nothing achieved.Since mum's branded bag was stolen, she has turned from thrifty to stingy.Those scoundrels who had committed crime could get away with our hard-earn money without any compunction while leaving the victims with nightmares and worries, losing their faith to the others.Heaving a sigh....where is the peace of life? *shaking head*

I wish I am equipped with tough wings, fly as high as I could, as for know the sky is the limit.

In this materialistic world, only one who make big money can gain some respect from the others.For those who thinks that I am hardworking, I can only tell that their judge is the biggest mistake.I have yet to put in my effort to achieve what I want.

Now I just knew what I want.My potential is beyond your imagination.Don't simply judge me.

2011-01-05T12:40:00.002+08:00

Since mum started to work, I have taken over her job and responsibilities.

Response to the sun ray which penetrate the window,half open my eyes,wash my face, get the clothes and whatever in the laundry machine, hang them on the clotheshorse and make sure they are not stained with even one drop of rainwater!

Then start preparing + having breakfast with my brother.Open and close the gate for him before he walking to school.And it's time to clean up!

A duster in right hand and a broom in my left hand.

Training myself to be a housewife huh?

Life as a housewife is really tedious but it means so much to a family!

without them, it's not called a home anymore. :)

2011-01-04T17:51:00.002+08:00

First job interview today.

Timing was too wrong...vacancies occupied.

I was too late for it though it is a quite decent job with nice employer there.

Will keep this one for next year. :D cheers.

Back to the jobless life again.

Hey it's 2011!

2011-01-01T16:36:00.004+08:00

1.1.11

00.01 am

I was truly amazed by the firework show at singapore marina bay sand with jt and kl.

There is a big difference to watch it in telly and live! Didn't regret for making such an arduous trip there.For the sake of 8 minutes of visual satisfaction, we went all the way there!

It was unbelievable that we had walked such a long way in the midst of the crowd.

The atmosphere was merry, and I glanced at people from all walks of the life.

There were couples, families, friends, youngsters and kids.

What is so significant about welcoming the new year 2011?

I had slumbered for every night of countdown from the year 1994 till 2008.

Soon i started to stay up, counting down with sister on the phone.

Celebrating the coming of new year is also setting my goals and new resolutions.

for 2011,

I wish I can kick my bad habit: doing things at very last minute.

Be a stronger person in both mental and physical.

Possess as much knowledge as possible.

Response to my alarm clock and wake up immediately.

Stay away from facebook.hehe.

Get a DSLR.

2010-12-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

My mind is always blank when coming to a title.I can't set a title.

It is not only a matter in a day but it is an accumulation of one's mood,pictures,food and etc.

I remembered, 25th dec 2008, the day when my family and I shifted to the current home.

When people were celebrating their Christmas with palatable turkey,glasses of red wine accompanied by some caroling, we were panting and busy tidying up the messy home.

It took us a few days to make the it look really like a home.

Time flies and I have spent my time in this house.Some laughters and shouting, some whining and scoldings, these made it look even more like a home.I even went through some grueling examination period, stressing and staying up to finish the studies.

Not to forget, blogging when everyone is asleep.I enjoy being myself.Staying up alone but not feeling lonely.Recently I am deeply addicted to some visual materials.

Craving to own a DSLR within 4 months time.I am drooling over the quality pictures on tumblr!

Getting really impatient to master photography skill and make my life a more colourful one.

Life is way too boring.I sleep and eat.Wake up and walk.Walk into every corner at home.Internet and computer.That is how I live when I am jobless.

Hope the employer would give me a chance for interview.I really need a proper life.

Life has been turning topsy-turvy since my holidays started.

2010-12-10T21:08:00.001+08:00

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Cold play - Christmas light

2010-12-10T20:42:00.003+08:00

Christmas night, another fight
Tears we've cried are flood
Got all kinds of poison in
Of poison in my blood

I took my feet to Oxford street
Trying to right or wrong
Just walk away those windows
But I can't believe she's gone

When your still waiting for the snowfall
Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

A group of candles on me are flickering
Oh they flicker and they flow
And I am up here holding on to all those chandeleers of hope
And like some drunken in this city
I am go singing out of tune
Singing how I always loved you darling
And how I always will

But when your still waiting for the snowfall
Doesn't really feel like Christmas at all
Still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

Those Christmas Lights
Light up the street
Down where the sea and city meet
May all your troubles soon be gone
Ohh Christmas Lights keep shining on

Those Christmas Lights
Light up the street
Maybe they bring here back to me
Then all my troubles will be gone
Ohh Christmas Lights keep shining on

Ohh Christmas Lights
Light up the streets
Light up the fireworks in me
May all your troubles soon be gone
Those Christmas Lights keep shining on

2010-12-09T13:45:00.002+08:00

Life still goes on.

I see light at the ending of the tunnel, I dashed towards it, anticipating for freedom.

I get it.the freedom.

There is no sense of victory, I turned back and I saw a reflection.

It showed how I panted along the way, burning midnight oil, struggling hard.

I wonder if I am drifted further away from my dream.

My mind and thinking are not stretching wide nor embedding deep.

Knowing that I am turning 18 within one month time, I really need progression to be one 18-year-old teenager/youth?

It is awful for someone to look old with an empty husk.People always judge and scoff.

I am not heaving a sigh of regret,but getting curious about being a human.

Not going to live an ordinary and tedious life.Get moved on.

My life is not gonna be judged by a slip.

20 days countdown

2010-11-03T11:17:00.002+08:00

I can't see any stress in myself, perhaps it is still lying within and ready to break out any time.

This is really scary.I may burn out in the final few days left.

And I just realized that I like the sentences people said to me," I can see potential in u"

Well, I feel consoled to hear this as this means I still have hope.

Should getting nearer to reach the A+ but things seem to be the vice versa.

Days are mundane especially when exam is imminent.=.=

Perhaps I am too free to be here

2010-10-18T18:30:00.004+08:00

Christmas concert today!
We almost rock the building down.Convent is the only school in JB which is celebrating it,inviting everyone to join the christian to worship the God, watching sketches, singing and dancing.
This is the last one I had attended in my school uniform.

In the meantime, they also had performance for Mrs Ignatius and Mrs D.C who are leaving together with us this year.These are my favorite teachers.I have nothing much to say other than taking a chance to convey my gratitude and love to them.They are just AWESOME though I had complaint through a year for the loads of homework they had given to me.I was always overwhelmed with papers.(seemed like teacher has got a photocopy machine at home).This year had been much relaxing and I slacked for add maths when mrs.ignatius is no longer teaching me.Hence,I still haven't cross the boundary between A and A+.And yea, I am thankful to have joined interact for the chance to know and get along with mrs ignatius.She makes delectable tuna sandwiches for us, always be the one to stay with us and clean up the rubbish after event.The sandwiches may be a just 2 pieces of bread spread with tuna and mayonnaise, but the efforts she made that matters.We enjoy every single bite of it.=D
She had spend 21 years in teaching, which is 1/4 of a decade.

I'm very sorry to have dozed off in their classes throughout the years, as you know, sitting properly and silently in class is not my habit.I will either fall asleep or chat with whoever sitting beside me to keep myself awake.Pn D.c is the only teacher who gave the nickname "sleeping beauty" to me,and one who prominently has high expectation for all of us but I had disappointed her anyway.

It is way to soon to end my secondary life.
I am gonna miss these days and teachers who had dedicated so much for us.
Hence, I won't come up with any bad ideas to keep school anymore, and cherish every moment in school.=)

A ride please?

2010-10-16T17:33:00.005+08:00

passengers

everyone was looking at the ticket machine

full car? overloaded.hehe.

my shiok sister.she provides good service.hahaha.

An exciting trip today.

Though saturday school is a waste of time but they had made today alive!

Laugh; smirk; scream; chat;

heart racing; heart throbbing; heart attack;

& A heart warming experience.

A concoction of feelings that cannot be depicted.

I just wanna say,

Sis you are super AWESOME!

A birthday blast

2010-10-15T23:24:00.011+08:00

the birthday girl

camera vibrated

3 out of 5

my sisters

the crazy woman

Happy 17th birthday to my sister, cassie.

We had a great party in her house, water balloon fight, played guitar and everything.

These happy memories will be etched in our heart forever.

I was party out! =D

In a big crowd,

friend are easy to make,

true friend are hard to seek.

I'm glad that at least i have true friends like u!

181th

2010-10-14T17:37:00.002+08:00

Looking at this number reminded me of my greatest fear in primary school.

I got damn worried when my number tag: 00181 was written on the blackboard by the class monitress. =\

Days by days.

Page by page.

Calendar get thinner.

SPM get nearer.

Stress is overwhelming me.

But only pimple indicate the sign of it, not the action.

Had so much fun eating lunch with my sisters today in the "pikachu" japanese shop.

And first time in my life I experience short circuit in CS.

In the dark, I grab hold of joana/ huiyee... etc's hand with fears.

I am such a coward who is scared of dark and cockroach.=(

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其实今天的心情超低落的，

也许就因为我的思想瑕疵了些吧。

我竟然蒙起了“付出了多少，就该得到多少” 的念头，

真是不应该......

我计较,在乎自己对自己奉献了多少时间精神,甚至想要得到酬劳，

这种思想绝不能再出现！

今天做了测试“多少心机”的心理测验，

为了让答案更标准，我请别人念了出来。

答案是这样的：

你这个人其实很少和心机扯上关系，或许在某些情况下才会有心机...

大概这个意思。

还有“包容心强”---可是这点我极力否认。

最让我耿耿于怀的却是他们脸上的反应。

难道我是有心机的人吗？

我从来没有想过要如何去得到某样东西，

更没有想过要怎么害人，

我只想快快乐乐，平平安安，

过我想要的生活。

我已经尽力以最真诚的心去待人了，

为什么别人且把我当成这种人呢？

我幸运考上榜，

自己从来都不认为我有多厉害，

许多人且认为我“非常勤劳”，

看见我在班上打瞌睡就问我：“你昨天读书读到三更半夜是吗？”

这显示了别人一向来都贬低我的实力，

对我的第一次突破感到质疑！

我真的很希望，我跌班的那一段日子没有人在背后幸灾乐祸！

我想在此声明，

我若努力，

我就不会沦落到这种状况，

我若是有心机，

就不会向人倾诉，

也不会告诉你我有多少讨厌的事情！

我要考取好成绩，

是不要被人看不起；

我会在此发泄，

是因为我在乎别人对我的想法，

我说了这么多，

我好像是为别人而活，

看不见自己的影子。。。

Walking on sunshine

2010-10-10T23:52:00.003+08:00

Sunday schedule still flows as normal.
Awaken, had my teeth brushed, bathed, breakfast and off to tuition at 7.15am.
How early it is! Saturday is my only holiday, the only day that I do not have to wake up like schooling days.

A difference in Mr.Lim's class today was that I didn't let him call my name for being talkative nor dozing-off-in-class reasons, it really made my day!

Lunch.
Supposed to have it with my mum, but she had it with some old friends.
Chien yin was the lucky girl who I managed to drive home.I believe mum was the only one complaining about my driving skill.She always sits in the car with a racing heart, exaggerating every little danger that might happen over my ears though it was just nothing.* i really have no idea on how to assure a overreacted one *
For eg, it was still 3 metres away. " BRAKEEEE.....!" though my foot was pressing 1/4 of the brake pedal already.
Sitting my car is like sitting in a roller coaster for her.
So I am offering free ''roller coaster ride'' for everyone here.=P

My younger brother is finally fled from UPSR and he finally 'reunite' with his favorite sports, play tennis.As mum was not in, I took the job to fetch him.

And here I was reminded with the advices from my mum when she was still in the car,
" be more careful."
"fine, I don't fetch him.let's walk together"
"it is even more dangerous"
"I would cycle there while accompany the walking one.haha"

Something flashed through my mind immediately.
It was few years back,
the advices from mum before she leaves was like this:
"make sure that both of you don't FIGHT!"

a sudden blast of euphoria! T.T * I notice the differences on how mum has been treating us*
We have grown up like so many years without noticing.
however, no matter how old we have grown, we are still the child that never grow in our parent's eyes.
They shower us with overloading love, which foster the closest relationship with us.
I am afraid I will suffer from homesick when I leave one day.

10.10.10

2010-10-10T23:49:00.001+08:00

Suddenly realise the urge to post something on this special day!

I don't have 10 wishes,
but I just hope and wish I can have a 10A+.

=D

It's october

2010-10-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

Counting down : +/- 44 days to spm.

Yeah.I'm not ready at all.

People would say 'as if' when they saw this.

I was just a wee bit luckier than the rest, and people thought I studied very hard for exam.

It doesn't mean anything by the position.

When news spread, and people see me with a tiring look in school,

the first sentence will be " kv, why u looked so tired? staying up to study at night?"

=.=

I abhor this.*a deadpan look*

" it was because i played game la"

In fact I can have sleep deprived for games but not study.

how much i hope i can get rid of the lazy bones that lie within.

I am not as smart as what people think.

Lo and behold, I'm online right now.

It's all about her.

2010-10-02T23:32:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY MASTER!

Knew her since form 1.a great, sincere and crazy friend of mine.
if i didn't drop class this year, it would have been 5 years to be her classmate.
Thanks God for his plan.
We became closer and perhaps this matches with the saying that goes "absence make our hearts grow fonder".

To my little cute friend, I love u!
Good luck for everything u do.Straight A+ comes in handy.reach out for it! i believe you are the one who deserves it.

it's nil

2010-10-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

I detest the word ''hardworking''.

I abhor people who start talking nonsense about ''hardworking''.

Just want to emphasize again, I don't believe that ''hardworking'' people can achieve a greater success.It depends.

Don't you ever mention it right in front of me.

2010-10-01T00:37:00.001+08:00

It's time to pass autograph around.

knowing that our days are numbered, I actually cherish everyday we spend together in class.

though loads of exercises is piling up high, I don't mind doing it with my peers.

no matter how boring is the class i will still continue to sleep like how i always do, contribute to noise pollution and have food and fun in class.*evil grin*

Bet im gonna miss these days.

Cheers!

I need more life experience

2010-09-19T21:28:00.004+08:00

My mood fluctuates recently.

It may trigger any tear any moment.

God shows me all kinds of people in this world, is he trying to lead me into this complicated social?
I have been confronting rude and arrogant adults.I nearly lost my control in emotion.
With an agitated and exasperated look, I burst into tears after being scolded by other adult who is not related to me at all.

Villian no.1
When a customer demands a good from a dealer, of course she will ask for one with good quality before paying.this is user's authority.
We have right to decide because the money is ours.When customer is not satisfied with the good, so they will automatically refund it.So the dealer must make another correct one isn't it?

So I have tried to accept what wasn't so satisfying, but the message was conveyed with a mistake to the dealer.
Hence the dealer scolded and shouted at me for not sparing a thought for them, she is not going to give me back any of my belonging and the sample which we had paid!
I hope god will judge for us.

Since she gave me the wrong thing in the first place,so she was definitely wrong.yet she is being so annoying,what's the point of being so petty over a trivial matter which could have been settled if she didn't do it wrongly in the first place? it should have saved lotsa trouble!

Scoundrel no.2
Another cheeky stupid indian fellow who snatched parking lot away from me.
He is blind and he cannot see the signal light of my car, which i wondered how did he get his license in the first place.
He horned me and drove into the parking lot by a chance when i went in front and prepared to do a reverse parking.
Of course i horned back, however this kind of notorious and no standard driver who stays in malaysia reluctant to compromise at all!
it's sad to see this kind of things happen in malaysia.this means our people are less educated about manner.I believe i don't see this happen in other western country because they always apologize at the first place, and most importantly a lot of them are gentleman, so they will say " lady first please," with a brighten-up-my-day smile.
this is what we should learn from them.

My parents told me there are so many more these kind of people in your future, so much worst than whoever I see now, so much more cruel and hostile.

Well, i just hope that I have a better eloquence and become a more insightful person in future.
I'm not going to flinch nor retreat like a coward!
My blood is at boiling point right now.

step up 3D

2010-09-17T21:24:00.005+08:00

Finally watched step up today though i was late.but it is awesome!

He is glowing.=D

Without any bad intention

2010-09-15T23:37:00.007+08:00

Seeking this golden opportunity when my mum is out with her friends, i quickly started off the car engine and drove off from my house yesterday night!

Guess where i went to? *evil grin*

In fact I am not a bad teenager. I paid a visit to huiyee's house, asking her out to have a drink at HABIB mamak stall which is just a stone thrown away from her house.
Getting so delirious for the first experience of fetching my friend out, I smirked all the way.

Just about to reach the place." Don't you worry that we don't have money with us?"I answered " I brought RM 2 which is enough for a teh tarik! " =.= From there we went to giant to exchange money and finally we settled down to have our supper/dinner.hehe.

Rm 2 can settle a supper like this.

Look at the palatable cheese Nann she had ordered.yummy.=P

A trip to the opposite island

2010-09-08T23:25:00.011+08:00

An awesome getaway we had!

On 7 Sep 2010, jinting, jiaying, sok cheng and I packed our bags and off we went for our holidays.

A great escape to the island opposite, we walked,talked,jumped,laughed,stopped at the East Coast Park.Loads of fun we had and we really enjoyed ourselves but this doesn't mean that we forget our spm.=P

Here is a tip for u to get there,

first you alight at Paya Lebar MRT station,take a 197 bus and walk across an overpass to reach there.A first experience for us, we actually asked the pedestrian.

Nothing can be more fun by riding a double bike with our friends.Screamed in excitement.Falling down together.And not to forget, we cam whore together!

So im gonna let the pictures to do the talk!

the yummy yoghurt ice-cream we had

A view from the beach

double bike

Promenading along the beach

disciple and master

enjoy the sea breeze

Aha.This should be my holidays.

2010-09-07T00:11:00.002+08:00

Staring at the screen, fingers tapping on keyboard, breathing while frowning.

Only 2% of the grey matter is working now.i just know i'm suck at surveying.
Anyway, for the sake of fun, I did it.

After an hour,
finally.

East coast here we come!

Another day has gone

2010-09-04T22:13:00.002+08:00

Oh well, the computer is 99% belonged to me from today onwards.
My sibling has bid farewell to it since he learned about radiation from his teacher in school.

What a strong determination he has!
I should be so glad that i can use it 24 hours now, what about the consequences?
In short term, I may be very entertained,
In long term, I am going to become a victim who may die in excessive radiation.
the worst thing to happen -- brain cells die! ---------> brain damage ---------> Amnesia -----> Cannot score well for my SPM anymore!!!

Paranoid state now...depress.

Anyway, let's have fun when we have the chance.

If friendship can be a book, I would love to doodle happy memories in it all the while

2010-09-04T01:25:00.003+08:00

I was just about to sleep when a thought struck me.
Instead of lying on my bed, I chose to walk to my computer and reflect.

Once i had a strong believing that a true friend will always be the one no matter how far we are parted, how much had we quarreled,how little we contact each other.
However, this notion is starting to dysfunction when time proves everything.

Perhaps I was the one doing wrong for not learning to accept changes in one, and without knowing why a feeling came up to me, indicated me to leave the warm room we were in.
Left behind, some cold and irony words which pierce anyone's heart.

When did this feeling begin in my heart?
Why does the change in someone made me feel so uneasy to adapt?

I wonder if I am a selfish friend to the others.
Tolerating ain't a way to amend the blunders we had made.

Knowing that we are not young anymore, due to our opinion and the similar characteristics and traits we shared, there is a conflict between us.

I hope I am just being a paranoid who can understand people's mind ultimately.
Maybe i should just go study psychology and enlighten my mindset.

Exhausted.

It just a simple life.what more?

2010-09-04T01:03:00.007+08:00

It has almost been one month we had survived through this excruciating exam period.
Finally it's time for us to take a break and revive my long-hibernated blog.

This Friday night we had a fun gathering around Tebrau City which build up more joyful memories among us.Time flies and when we realize about it, two more months to graduation.
I told myself, try not to miss out any outing with my friends because this is our last year, and who will i get along with next year would be different people.How i will miss my dear friends here.

The first lunch after my exam was this self-cooked meal.
A Korean clay pot noodles and some hotdog! Yummy.i love the cheese so much.

I was totally inspired.

2010-08-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

Armless pianist defies odds in talent show

Watching the video below may literally bring tears to your eyes.

It shows an armless, self-taught pianist from Beijing, Liu Wei, playing the piano to a stunned, teary-eyed audience in ”China’s Got Talent” reality TV competition.

The 23-year-old wowed audiences and judges alike despite having no arms and using merely his two feet to play the piano.

Liu lost both his arms when he suffered a freak accident at the age of 10 after touching an electrical wire while playing hide and seek. The accident left him in critical condition for 45 days.

Recalling the tragic memory, he said, “I realized that I lost my arms forever and I cried.”

Losing both his arms did not deter him from his ambition of being a great music producer. He started practicing the piano at the age of 19 and admitted that it was tough at first. Although, he suffered from cramps and abrasion, he persevered.

On participating in the talent show, he said, “In my perspective, I have to be successful. My objective to be here is getting Top 3. So my mom could be proud of me.”

Watch his performance here.

His performance left one judge speechless and Liu was asked how he was able to do it.

His response? ”I think there are only two roads that I can choose in my life. One is to give up which would lead to a hopeless death. The other is to live life wonderfully. Nobody says that to play a piano, one can only use his hands.”

On his magical performance of the score, “Mariage D’amour”, one judge commented, “I think including me, and the others here, when we are watching him, when we are listening to his music, we shouldn’t have any complains in our lives.”

If we can take anything out of Liu Wei’s heart-warming, inspiring tale, it’s to stop complaining Linked from Yahoo.

Stay single is my preference

2010-07-31T00:25:00.002+08:00

Being alone is a kind of freedom to me.
For sometimes, i just love to be alone, listening to the music that i love the most, reading a book, chewing a hamburger, leaning against a window with a rainy day outside.
It is just so relaxing and for that moment i don't have to care about people anymore.
I can put everything aside, focus on what I wanna do and enjoy myself for the 2 little hours.

Whenever I eat alone, people always ask me why am i being so pitiful.Is this called pitiful for eating alone,reading alone in a shopping mall or any other public places?
I enjoy this kind of life actually.I can get rid off any burden and at the same time i don't have to accustomed to the others.

However, life can be lonely sometimes.
Friends are still the one who can accompany us.

If you want to get something but you didn't get it, that means you didn't really want it.

2010-07-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

I have been asking myself for umpteen times recently.
Am I sure about what i wanna be in future?
Am I sure about who im gonna be?

Actions do speak louder than words.But i can't see myself budging at all.
Do I really want what I want?
It is just like slipping out of my mouth in sudden, and when i tilt my head up and face this reality, I am so afraid that I am way too far from it.
To my conscience, I am not paying any efforts at all.
I still go online, still sleep for hours, still daydreaming.

My life is getting more and more insignificant.=.=

2010-07-23T00:05:00.006+08:00

I have not been blogging in ages.

Left with tad bit of energy here, at least I'm still conscious, knowing myself cannot focus in what i'm doing now, this is the only way out.To calm my fluctuating mood, chill myself and make myself sit properly in my thoughts.

Nothing funny has happened this week, exam is imminent, somehow it was brought forward and making everyone to be in a chaos.At least I can't feel the stress in sc2's atmosphere.Everyone still talk and laugh no matter teacher is in or not.The whole class is in pandemonium especially when teachers are not around! =D

Autographs are all around, color papers, and it reminds us of school leaving.
It is gonna happens in less than 4 months, but who cares.We must enjoy our life to the fullest.
But frankly I'm still not so familiar with many classmates.It took me some time to accept the class, then exam took place, our form 5 year is just flash past our shoulder.
Trials is coming, the second big fear to me because Spm is the first!

I am still as blur as before, as sleepy as before, there is no change in me, which means this is gonna be a disaster when trials is ahead of me.A few hours away from it, I will be burning midnight oil again.So this is a life of a student.

I am getting bored with schooling days, teachers are rushing to finish our chapters,it is just getting really really mundane to me.so I wanna share a song which i LIKE a lot here,which always bring a smile on my face:

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

We succeeded for once

2010-07-13T19:02:00.001+08:00

At least we achieved something.

It was really out of expectation.

Anyway,hard work finally paid off.
Keep it up, juniors.

Life is just so simple

2010-06-28T00:27:00.004+08:00

Sometimes in life when we wait for something,
the stronger the desire,
the higher chance for us to lose it.

So I have decided to put it down, let it go.

saengil chukha hamnida, MIN HO OPPA!

2010-06-22T20:51:00.004+08:00

생일 축하합니다!

2010-06-22T19:50:00.001+08:00

跌班的阴影，
始终没有消失。

原来不只是我的颓丧，
也加上了别人瞧不起我的眼神。

别人就是不爽我。

别人是别人，
可是那个别人竟然是自己身边的朋友。

原来别人不愿意和我并肩作战。

除了自己的父母和老师之外，
再也没有人会要我好。

it's sunday again!

2010-06-20T19:26:00.008+08:00

Sunday oh Sunday.
My worst tuition day.
From chemistry to add maths,
cracking my head to the fullest and squeezing my brain juice out.

Great joy comes when I solve add maths.
Frustration comes when I am left flabbergasted.

Anyway, today was a slightly different Sunday.
Mum finally keeps her promise to let me drive once i get my license.
After lunch I held the steering, hold my breathe ( being too scared to have any tiny/medium/big scratch on my mum's car), legs(i'm no longer using manual) on pedal, ready to drive home! don't worry.it was just a stone thrown away from the restaurant.

And worse came to worst, i couldn't turn left but stopped in the mid road under no choice when the traffic light turned red in a jiffy.
So I was stuck in the middle.
and BESIDE me was a Berjaya-Learning-in-progress-Kancil.
Both the instructor and the learner were staring at me...
I was feeling so embarrassed and couldn't wait to have a "P" sign sticked to the rear and front, up and down of the mirrors.

Luckily i didn't block the others.
When green light was on, I slowly turn the steering and stretched my neck to the maximum length to ensure my mum front bumper won't touch even any dust.

My mum held her breathe and ready to scream like she was sitting in a roller coaster.
I was holding the steering tightly too, paying a 100% attention and watched out every part of my mum's car.I knew the consequences if I let my mum's car touch a twig or anything else.

Finally reached home.Phew.

我们需要一个肯定

2010-06-20T19:17:00.003+08:00

别人都在风光了，我们到底为自己干了什么？

悲伤并没有因为时间的流逝而埋没自己。

每每看见息息相关的人，
心中难免隐隐作痛，

都快毕业了，
我还在烦什么？

别人以为我们不在乎，
真是知人知面不知心。

最痛的是我们，
最无助的也是我们。
最放不下的也是我们。
最后被抛下的是我们，
最后的五个挡箭牌。

还是要先把自己的成绩搞好才能让父母风光，
这种风光并不是炫耀，
而是给予自己的一种肯定。

2010-06-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

Yea right, half month has gone.

I was surprised when I look at the calendar today.16 June 2010.

And I realized that the biggest mistake I had made was to be satisfied with myself.
Making myself a fool.

Hopefully I have inherited my dad's genes, a straight pass for driving test today.=)

Boring life

2010-06-10T14:14:00.002+08:00

I always sleep.

Neither it's that i initiate my body to do so nor i don't have enough sleep.

I am just too tired sometimes.

I woke up at 7am, my mum asked me if i had insomnia, or there is something wrong with me.
I woke up at 12pm,

oh...that is just ME! =P

After exam's 1st activity

2010-06-05T23:42:00.002+08:00

Went to Bugis with Jinting, Jiaying and Xinyin today!
Ended up empty-handed though it is sale sale sale in s'pore.
4 of us were pretty dazzled in the bugis street, lots of clothes and bags and shoes, however we didn't meet our favorite.

They couldn't find the bags they want.
We couldn't find the shoes we craved.
However, we are darn satisfied because we had a great tea time in Shokudo Japanese Coffee House and delicious snack from Se Ra Bel Korean Street Snack.

Incredibly, I realized i only spent around 10 dollar there and all the money is spent on food and bus fare.
No photo is able to be attached because my USB connector is still in taiwan.sigh.
Anyway, hope everyone enjoys your holidays!

I found it, jiaying!

2010-06-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Dreadful feeling has not varnished yet.
Saw almost all the form 5 and 3 students from jb in cs.
Went to popular and I just happened to pick up a travel encyclopedia with epic and wonderful buildings in the world.
My eyes were shining with tears and i swear i will make my way there one day!
Hat off to architect!

How torturing!

2010-06-02T15:51:00.004+08:00

Time flies and it has been one month since my last post.I knew i cannot and will not leave my blog hibernating for too long.I almost break the record of keep my hands off the keyboard and the mouse of the computer throughout the whole midyear exam.However, here I am, starting to slack again because life is too mundane for me to immerse myself in books everyday (only meant for exam period =P).

3 weeks of exam is undeniably distressing.Perhaps i have not experienced a worse one so i am complaining here now.
Throughout the exam, i mostly will sleep after finish checking the papers and once in a while i would daydream in this solemn and nervous-stricken examination hall.How tedious life is!
Sometimes an urge approach me to blog.I had lots to say but i can't allow myself to blog.Mum had confiscate the modem and cpu until my brother's exam ended.this is unfair.
However, i had realized how life has changed without the existence of computer.Life is great without it and I could spend my time fairly well.=)
So i have made a decision to online once a week.

Today's Chinese paper is torturing! I remembered I stamped my foot, grasped my hair and scratched my head so hard to fill in the blank.My mind went blank together with the blank.=.=
Empty spaces have been increased compared to previous year, and the reduced objective questions are so tough and the choices are contradicting.
I just could not help myself but to admit that English is easier to be mastered compared to Chinese.
Many people wonder why i take Chinese for spm, but from the bottom of my heart i know this is my mother tongue and i can't stop learning it.

2 more days to go.Bio for my last paper.Great.Have not really gone through it.

It was during primary school time since we know the word 'smart' and 'stupid'.
I remembered when i was in primary school, I just happened to know some athletes in school though i am not good in sport.It was dubitable and ridiculous for me to join the school's team, so I always be the last one in race with them.
They always insulted me in an irony way as an "A" class student,''smart'' and of course i won't know any foul words.I knew the meaning of the words.I just forbid myself from saying it.

This afternoon i just heard a primary school girl saying it again.''XXX is from the first class, because she is 'Smart' ma." Within a second i reminisce back to my life in standard 6.Vividly.
Years by years, we have grown up and we are exposed to tough and tougher subjects.
The words 'Smart' is no longer appeared in my dictionary since the year 2010, instead I call myself a 'Stupid' now.

Life has changed so much and our notions are altered together with the environment.
People can't judge people by the words ''smart'' and ''stupid''.
It is the hard work and efforts that matter.However, I failed to discover the lazybones that had been hiding under my skin for so many years!
It is still early for me to realize that i am ~~stupid.~~

Just a quick note

2010-05-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

Life has been busy recently.
I won't be blogging as often as i did.
Hopefully everyone can do well in the upcoming exam as i know that all of us are actually striving hard for it!
All the best.=)

Chemistry Farces

2010-05-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

Today's chemistry class was fun!
Mr. Lim:

Tonight when you sleep, do not brush your teeth.
Close your mouth for the whole night.
Let the bacteria to produce lactic acid and react with the food particles left over in your mouth.

On the next morning, open your mouth and put a burning wooden splinter inside.
A 'pop' sound can be heard.
Hydrogen is produced!

I was laughing my head off when he was looking for a target to be used for example.LOL.

2010-04-25T01:17:00.003+08:00

My lungs are tight right now.
I could hardly breathe.
Once again,I hold my tears back.
Crying won't help much.It is just a way to express our feeling.
I need a SHOUT now!Arghhhh.......

Within these few days, the tiny-little-swelling-ups that caused bit of pain to my face, which i abhor the most------PIMPLE'S' are showing themselves up and ready to be spotted by paparazzi.I am totally screwed up and under distressing condition.

What's wrong with my cerebellum?
What had happened to my fingers and brain?
Where do all these mistakes come from?
I have never invited them, and I don't know them at all.
How can they just ruined my exam?

for the third time, disgracing and embarrassing myself at the grand piano.
I know nothing about music.
I wonder why did God make me a left-handy and in fact I don't have any flair nor talent in mastering music or art?

I can do many things, but i can't excel in anything.
Everything i do is considered moderate or below the level.
Study, sports, music, art.....
Who and what am I going to be in future?
I really need to know.

小小的觉悟

2010-04-21T23:26:00.004+08:00

下个星期又得去见洋人了。
不管是俊男美女，
就拜托你们让我及格一次就行了。
拜托拜托。

近期时间紧迫，因此要加倍练习。
看琴键看久了，我自然地沉入了自己的空间里。

人只有十根手指，
不多也不少，
可是要完完全全地控制他们，
却比想象中的艰难。

即使成功了，
对于音节和任何一个音符都不能有所差错。
忽略了一个，或是冒犯了一个，
整个局面就会被曲扭了。

那十根手指，
必须时时刻刻地互相合作，
谁也不能忽略了谁。
朋友与朋友之间，
谁也不能忽略了谁，
也不该随着岁月的流逝遗忘了他人。

而乐谱上的音节则是我们生活的规律，
不管在做什么事，
都不能轻举妄动，
因为如果出了什么差错，
我们必须承担后果。

黑白色的琴键，
各自代表了我们的悲喜。
悲喜交加之下，人生才会有起伏，
让我们活得更有意义。

就让我们随着音乐的节奏，
昂首阔步，
一步一步地迈向我们的人生目标。
为我们的人生乐谱弹奏出最快乐，且最动听的曲子！

Why can't you just stay?

2010-04-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

Memories oh memories,
why do you want to run away?
I can't lock you in a room nor handcuff you.
Can you please stay a little bit longer? please please.
I want to remember all the happy memories which are not able to be captured in a photograph.
May all of you occupy the empty spaces in the diary of my life.
I will be fulfilled.=)

My first driving lesson in my lifetime(31 March 10)

2010-04-01T00:43:00.004+08:00

The weather was so fine.
And today for the first time in my life I grasped a steering, feet on the pedals which will bring the motorcar to move on a tar road, clicking on the signal button to show my existence, oh the feeling was GREAT!

I was so elated all the way, first time reaching home without having a feeling of drowsy.I got myself prepared within 1/2 hours.Done.=D

I smiled when I approached the "L" car, smirked in the car, giggled when the instructor wasn't in car.You could only describe me as an insane.
I believed that deep inside my heart i had been waiting long for this moment.

Overall I could only remember that the engine shut off by itself for umpteen times because I didn't control the clutch properly.I started reminding myself of how jay chou had acted so cool in "initial-D",how he managed the clutch and brake.Very concentrative huh?Thinking away while driving.

Anyway, it was fun.But i can't promise i would say this again after 10 years especially if I be a driver for tuition and lessons like what my mum is doing now....really appreciate her for sacrificing her time.

I really care

2010-03-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

Whenever i saw the others leaving, i actually want to rush back home at once than everybody else.
However, the burden, responsibilities, right attitude, passion and dedication hold me back.
I'm somehow fagged.
You could see me dozing off in class anytime.

How much I hope I don't have to sleep to gain energy.How much i hope i could save time on something else better to do.And I don't love to sleep.I sleep because I am too tired.

I am really stressful now.
I just hope the effort i had put in will be appreciated by the others.
I really care.
That's all.

I need holidays.just one more week.

2010-03-21T17:53:00.004+08:00

Pardon me for being so greedy.
I really need more holidays.

I know tonnes of homework are actually waiting ahead once school is reopened.

Went to education fair today, nothing much there other than colleges and a few universities, and the final conclusion is to flash a straight A's result before any enquiry.
No money, few talks.
No excellent result, no talk.
With money and excellent results, oh GREAT talk.

Without knowing why.

2010-03-19T19:34:00.003+08:00

I was excited to receive a call from my mum, asking me to return earlier to cook spaghetti.
But when time comes, she spoiled my mood.
She just can't understand me enough.this is what i could say.

whenever i have confidence in myself, people resist to trust me.
whenever i do a stuff, people love to comment.no matter it is good or bad.

It is not my day.
People always think I am responsible for something, and I have to carry the burden myself, lastly only they just come around and throw a comment to me when they see the result.
This is so unfair.
If You don't trust me, please stop giving me hopes, stop pushing the all the responsibilities to me.So what? a higher post can just use your mouth to do things?DREAM ON!
ALL WE NEED IS COOPERATION BUT NOT WHOSE RESPONSIBILITIES THAT WE SHOULD COUNT ON.

This is funny!

2010-03-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

Before

After

Cheers! ^^

what about now?

2010-03-11T21:41:00.002+08:00

It was awesome to see how people had succeeded for their first life-challenging exam.

The more A+, the better you are.
A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A+
What about me?
Let's strive hard together.=)

Fancies.

2010-03-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

Had stopped obsessing with him temporary

2010-03-06T01:20:00.006+08:00

A blast birthday celebration

2010-03-04T22:36:00.004+08:00

Rushed to cs like running 1500m today.
And i finally managed to reach in time to celebrate HUI MING & HUI YING 's birthday together!
This is our last year of high school.If i missed it i don't know when will we be able to gather like today again.

3.40pm.Off to P.P together with my daughter,son-in-law and great grandchild.
We sang to our heart's content, screamed our lungs' out and get excited over our beloved Korea's celebrities.We rocked in a ''quarantined'' room,feeling elated,dragged and pulled to a high pitch note that sounded a bit out of tune.Anyway, we don't care how it sounded at all.The most important thing was everyone enjoyed themselves.teehee.=P
And I really take my hat off for xinyin for rapping so fluently even looking at the Korea words without pinyin.

It was freedom! the feeling was like floating in the sky.
Other than birthday celebration, we were actually venting out the exam stress that lasted in us for more than 4 days!
Insane, delirious, crazy.I don't mind it and i hope it could last longer.
This is something I must achieve before my high school end, for the 17 years of life time because these are the greatest memories that i'm gonna remember forever and treasure it again when i am in golden age.
I believed i would start laughing to myself whenever i think of it.
So i wanna achieve something crazier before my spm.

Today is the best day ever.
The great stone that was suspended in my heart was put down.
Enough of craps.hee.=D
Gotta have a good sleep tonight!

Tiredness will turn into a smile

2010-03-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

4 days of exams.10 subjects + sivik.
9 down.
1 more to go + sivik <----- this subject doesn't seem to exist.wasting time only.

A few hours later after my modern maths test i will get the feeling of touching a steering and a gear. (not in the real life). I have yet to sit for my undang test.

Quite elated.
I have forgotten since when I get so stressed out in a minor exam.

But not to forget,
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO HUI YING (Lai Lai) & HUI MING(KPOP LOVER).

28 Feb 2010

2010-03-03T23:02:00.005+08:00

With the beads of sweat that trickle over my forehead and adrenaline that was pumped continuously into my heart, the long awaited moment finally arrived.
And I was dumbfounded.

It was almost the end of the world.to me.

I wonder.
How long does God want us to taste the affliction and agony?
How long does God want to challenge us throughout this journey?

4 years of trying.All turned into 'experience' that end the history.Within a blink of an eye.
Nothing gained.Nothing.
Only the sweat and tears.
Discouraging and criticizes from the surrounding.includes those in the same boat.

It is not the pain that can disappear after a cry.
The wound that never heal so far.
Perhaps it won't heal forever.
A deep wound that aches at most of the time.especially when it is mentioned.
To cure the wound, we have done amends.
We have done what we should have done.

We hoped and craved.Craved and hoped.
Was that someone's curse was so much powerful than the effort we put in？
I really want to figure it out.What had happened to us?
It wasn't that we fell down and we did not want to stand up again, instead we stood up.
Together we stride in confident, putting our hard works, gave it another try, believing that we could do better!
But things still turned out in the other way round.

The best they had given in.
It won our nodding of heads.
But it didn't win the nodding of the others.

The longer moment they dragged, the higher hope we put in.
We hope to be better, to be better!
And finally we realised that we were climbing the vanishing stairs of hope.
We dropped onto the floor from the high air.
Hope shattered.
Heart shattered.

Here come the disappointment that we shared together.
This is not the ending we wanted.We wanted a new beginning.
I hate this feeling.
And I wonder why must we be the one who suffered?
When people really gave up on us, but we didn't give up ourselves.

We feel the pain.Everyday in our life.Everyday when we stepped into the school.
We don't want to let the others to feel like how we feel anymore.
I would rather suffer myself than making the others to suffer.
Can God hear me?

A week of holiday

2010-02-19T22:41:00.005+08:00

Chinese new year is a great time for me to slow down my pace, take some deep breath and live a laid back life here at home.When this whole week is gone, sports day, exams and homework are taking my life away.People said that you can celebrate chinese new year every year, but you can't sit for spm every year.With a hectic schedule ahead, how would you have the mood to do revision throughout this week?

Hence, I have done all these that can consider myself as a 'good' girl.
3 reasons to claim myself as a 'good' girl:
i. I did not gamble at all.
ii. I stayed at home most of the time.
iii. I still do my homework even though I use computer frequently.

The saddest thing for me is I still do not know how to drive even though I am qualified to take driving lesson.Hence I am always beside my parents, following them to relatives' houses or stay at home.
One week is gone.within a blink of an eye.
I am looking forward to my last sports day in convent.
Gotta bring umbrella,sunblock,cap and all my important skin caring products to prevent myself from getting charred.

Last reminder, don't ignore global warming.

I am trying to realise something

2010-02-09T20:00:00.005+08:00

Blogging always make me feel better.I can't shout anywhere else but here, because words is always the one replacing a piece of land called 'sadness filling land' found in my heart.Words can sum up all my joy, my sorrow and my tears.Before it gobble up my happy land, i'm gonna be stronger and chase all the negative thinking soldiers away!

I always seem to be a happy-go-lucky person in the others eyes, and hence people always can sense it and fathom my mind especially when i stop smiling, not exactly stop smiling as nobody can smile every single minutes, i should say it is a no-mood-expression(sometimes with some frowning eyebrows).Nobody knows the anguish and agony I suffer from my facade smile.But who would want to be a parasite in your body and know everything of you?

I smile.
To keep myself alive.
I smile.
To make myself happy.
I smile.
To conceal grief.
I always put my thinking into dilemma.
Should i pursue after a joy, or should i compromise the sadness?
Should we outshine ourselves, or should we let the others to discover the potential and talents that lie within?
Everybody has a different perspective.
From the angle we look at it, sometime it can be wonderful, sometimes it hurts?
When we can't get other people cooperate or agree with us, should we make a change in ourselves?
There are so many unfair things happening around, if we speak up for ourselves, we complains,we reprimand,can we solve the problems?

During last friday's chinese class, the teacher shared her opinion with us.
She said, in her notion, the elder we are, the less necessity for us to have confidant.
No matter how much we confide or complains to the others, no matter how we cried how we suffer, the problem still exist.
And we have to be the one to conquer it.
This is so true.

I don't blame the other people for lying to me or deceiving me,
But i blame myself for being so gullible and dependent.
Frankly, i always lack of confident when people strike me with their strong points.
I can change myself from shaking my head at initial stage, to nodding my head and follow the others' instruction.Easily beaten confidence.
That's why sometimes i would choose not to talk.
This is what I need to learn about in my journey of life.
I am still growing up mentally.

And here I wanna share a quote from woan lin,
Live and laugh everyday, that is what i wanna do.

A new experience

2010-01-24T19:51:00.002+08:00

By now i should be revising on my form 4 bio textbook, but i am blogging here.
I have not updated since like half month earlier, as we have been so busy since school starts.
Everyday i will leave home in a energetic and sunshine smile but coming back home with a weary smile.I always have my sleeping time deprived by loads of homework and that will long enough to end a day.then full stop.another morning to wake up.another ringing of my alarm clock AGAIN.and add in another pressing on the ''turn off'' button,and i never want to snooze.
One day, two days, three days...days by days,and spm is really imminent.
And i don't even have the time to do revision.

Today i actually enjoy myself doing the mural at spastic school.Though painting wall is a bit tiring, but all of us get to enjoy the whole process.A brand new experience!how many times do u get to paint the wall with freedom meanwhile painting it with your friends?
Though sometimes i may get fed up when the colour is just not right and out of expectation, it is still a very good learning experience as i get another chance to learn from mistake.
NO boss nor teacher scolding us.We are free to imagine.

This is the time to unleash our art talent....though i am not very good in it.
But i'm very grateful to my bod for trusting me and respecting me, asking for my suggestion even though I am not steady enough to make a decision.

Alright, i'm looking forward to the complete picture.
See ya.

Random post

2010-01-09T20:18:00.003+08:00

I just came back from playground after 3 rounds of running, and i decided to give up.It has been like 5 years since i last did exercise at home.Running, jumping and etc, i had abandon all these interests few years back.I was no longer an athlete anymore since form 3.
After giving a try on running today, i have decided that I am not going to run for jogathon anymore due to the lacking of stamina.But i would love to walk and chitchat all the way to the endpoint but at the same time im gonna make sure i am not the last one!wahaha.
This is our school's first time to organise a jogathon and it would be very fun!A brand new experience + a very energetic walker like me.A camera will be brought along to snap some memories of form 5 along the way and to commemorate the journey we 'walk'.

I was feeling so terrible as when I breathe in, my lungs ached,but i was not so sure whether that pain is from the heart or from the lungs.The cool air that was sucked in cooled my lungs and it ached,so I stopped myself from continuing anymore.Perhaps i had not been exercising for too long?

Alright, it is just a random post today, i'm bushed.
A cheerful feeling actually start with a smile.
I'm feeling much better today.
And i am going to laugh everyday.=D

2010-01-07T19:12:00.006+08:00

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪

点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给

想哭来试探自己麻痹了没

全世界好像只有我疲惫

无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞

天灰灰会不会
让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背
难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁

也许事与愿违

累不累睡不睡
单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背
有谁肯安慰
我的世界将被摧毁
也许颓废也是另一种美

first in my life

2010-01-07T18:06:00.004+08:00

Today is like the saddest day in my life, and i can just cry any moment, no matter how many times i adviced myself to think positively,look at the bright side,change my perspective.Having to separate from my friends make me feel so tortured and anguished.It wasn't the class that matters but it was about the friendship i had built up throughout the year.Year by year, I have to make new friends again and again.Since form 3 until now, i struggle and struggle.It is not that the others are not my friends, but how many of them are my true friends?those really congenial one?I have many nodding acquaintance, hi-and-bye normal friends, and they are not who i need, but what can i do now?

I strive for my final exam.I thought even though I did badly in my midyear, at least i could improve myself in final.So what?i still dropped.
How much i hope i could stay, and live the happiest life with my friends.
Why do teacher want to stream?
Why?
To pick the smartest one among the smart one?
To put their hope in the first class?
This is the last year and why they don't want to let us enjoy but work hard with our friends?
Though it is like one class different, everything will change.
I miss mrs ignattius even though i had complaint about the loads of homework she gave us.
I miss puan usha, her high-pitched voice and her funny talk.A really awesome teacher.

the moment when i packed my bag and walked out, i felt like i was fired.
I broke my record.again.
the first time in my life, experiencing drop class.
Since standard one till form four, i never study in any class other than the first class.
I could hardly take the blow.
I don't feel like talking in the class anymore.
I won't forget today.the last day of learning together with my friends.
The friends who didn't abandon me.

And i felt so inferior when i met up with a top student after school.
I am just so useless, and i don't know what can happen to me the next moment.
I Still have to go to school.Still have to start a new life.
I hope i can live happily and adapt the new environment.

2010, here I come.

2010-01-01T23:16:00.007+08:00

I bet I am the latest one to wish everyone Happy New Year here.I'm still left with 30 minutes to 2nd of January and i have completed nothing on the first day of 2010, but watching tv and anime for the whole day.Telly is a great invention of people.It is taking my time away, without informing, and when i come to my realisation it has been too late.

A new year means a new beginning.
This is what everyone is saying about, and it is just so meaningless to me.
I am still a game-addictor and a slacker in study.Don't you ever believe that such a person will exist in sc 1 again.
A new resolution?
Study hard.An advice from my parents since I could speak properly and understand the adults' language.

And I realized that I have not done what the other youngsters are doing, meanwhile the time is getting faster and faster,and eventually you will find yourself panting.By the moment, it is Spm.The exam that I am so worried about even though i have not stepped into form 5.From my perspective, it is either I succeed or ruin my future or worse come to the worst, end up in a bottle-neck condition.Everything depends on us.
Depends on you.
Depends on me.

Perhaps some setbacks will trip you over but as long as we stand up, it is a new beginning.
A new beginning doesn't mean it has to be a new year.
Everyday can be a new beginning.
Unless you don't wake up again.=D

May everyone enjoys life!
stay happy.the most important element to continue experiencing and discovering the world.

Evian Roller Babies

2009-12-31T15:48:00.001+08:00

The babies are soooooo..... cuteeee!!!

My DREAM cars

2009-12-29T20:20:00.008+08:00

Lamborghini Ankonian Concept (a more aggresive version of Reventon)

Designed by: Slavche Tanevsky

Lamborghini Reventon

This is Lamborghini Insecta

And finally, Lamborghini Murcielago

At least there is still a little space for me to imagine and dream and be inspired.
It is impossible for me to be the owner but there is still a tad bit of hope for me to buy the models as my collection.
Be daring enough to work it out,
and it will bring 30,000 of lifetime happiness.

I dream to be happier.^-^

The day after christmas

2009-12-26T14:29:00.004+08:00

''mirotic''
it is ''mirotic''.
it is a phone call.

i was awaken by my mobile's ringtone.
A call from my mum.
"Later grandparents are coming, you better wake up now and wait for their arrival, open the doors for them."

My SHINee concert dream vanished.The dream was quite ridiculous and ludicrous and it would not happen 100%.The starting was like this, I suddenly saw SHINee going to a stadium(in jb) and i quickly ran towards them and greeted them.They were being very friendly as Key shaked my hand and said hi to me, Jonghyun walked too fast ad and i didn't see him.=( Meanwhile, Taemin beamed to me.After that moment i just realised that i should have greeted them annyeong.For that moment i forgot how to say annyeong.But it was slightly too late and the 5 of them had whisked away into a crowd.

So i swiftly spread the news to my friends (especially those kpop lovers) like yinxin, lingee, chee wei, junyi, jinting, huiying....These are who i remember right now.And the broker of SHINee brought us to an open space and informed us that SHINee would be performing there.
I couldn't say anything but my heart was pumping so fast and the excitement and the eagerness was oozing like mad.I can't wait for their amigo!!!

The funniest thing was when the person-in-charge asked us to show a hand to see how many people, i really did it.I raised up my hand on my bed in a semi-conscious condition.then i looked at my hand and wondered why i raised up my hand there.But i didn't get to see their performance because of the phone call.tsk tsk.

Dream is still a dream.haix.
But today i just learned how to make dumpling.A nice-shaped dumpling is really hard to be made.The thickness must be even and the bottom part must not be too thin so that the outer layer remain intact till the end.This is so hard for a clumsy hkv man.Btw, i still managed to complete 3 dumplings.To prevent further damage to the dish, i decided to give up and sit down to blog here.^^

Gotta try again next time.
My mum doesn't like any baking stuff.I wonder if i still remember how to bake the chocolate cookies we learnt in form 3.
It is a bit wasted for me if i just forget it like that.
3 years in ERT class should be fruitful but i just hate sewing so much.
Enough of trash.
Gonna have my teabreak now.Obviously i am not on diet but gaining weight.^-^

HOHOHO

2009-12-25T13:56:00.003+08:00

Merry christmas everyone!!!

today i just received a lot of present on farm ville.yippie.=D
there are little lambs, baby turkey and many many more cute animals.
I am feeling very happy today.
Hope that everyone do feel like me too!!!
enjoy your celebration.

I just broke my record

2009-12-23T17:46:00.002+08:00

It was not a fine day for me yesterday noon.
A hot weather and a spoilt computer at home.
Under the same roof with a naggy mum and a 5-years apart brother.
No socialization at all.Without a computer, nothing can be done.
Could you imagine how tedious is my life here?

So for the first time in my life,
I entered a cyber cafe, solely for the purpose of online.Don't mistaken my good intention.
I wandered around outside, trying to peep inside to check out if anybody was smoking, what they were doing with the computer.
For normal people, cyber cafe is only meant for those prankers and smoker.
I hesitated.
For a long long time.
Finally, i decided to pay a visit and discover the unrevealed.
I was nervous.seriously.with a trembling voice, looking at the shopkeeper, trying to figure out which race he was, and spoke the language.
He was a Malay.''Boleh online 30 minutes?"
"Boleh."
"Berapa?"
"seringgit"

okay....i found it is kind of wasting my time and money to online here.
It was so noisy with all the gunshot sound effect, the grumble of those losers and all the mixture of sound pollution.ENOUGH.
I won't ever enter this type of place for the rest of my life.
The whole room is full of games-addict.
I don't want to be a part of them.
I really can't stand those youngster who are still studying in primary,wasting their time and their parents' money on this type of place.

I didn't enjoy myself at all.
So I went back home right after that 30 minutes.
Home is still the best place ever.=)

Untitled again

2009-12-21T01:12:00.004+08:00

I have been fretting over the title and the starting as well more than a moment.
Blogging passion is fading away.
When something else better can replace it, why not we pick the more fascinating one?
I'm getting bored here.
I can do a lot more things other than blogging with my internet working.
But since I had chosen to blog, i will continue to blog.
There is nothing wrong for me to blog about how i fare right?
Though people may not care what i am writing now, but at least this blog means that i still exist on earth till my death.

I rarely post about entertainment as the main reason for it, i want to cut the connection between US.I can sink very deeply into the entertainment sea, and even get drowned.
I could barely control myself well, as u can see, the sliding process of my results.
However, i'm going to get my eyes washed before stepping into the year of 2010.
No more thinking of LMH anymore on 2010.Believe me or not?

Result result result...a-ha...PMR results will be out on this thursday.
Best of luck for all the form 3 and this year they are gonna celebrate christmas with a straight A's result.
And i could hardly believe....it has been one year.
I remember how nervous i was and the sleep-less night i had been through.
And finally,
no laughing.no tear.no wind.
Just a sigh of relief and a smile on my face to chill my family and relative.

it is quite late now and i gotta off to sleep.
i will post about my trip during the last 2 weeks if possible.
=)

2009-12-21T00:23:00.003+08:00

有时候，
父母说的话，
听起来，
像是谴责，
像是诅咒，
像是胡说，
像是埋怨，
像一把刀，

句句听起来特别的刺耳，
因为，

忠言逆耳。

Home's life come to a pause

2009-12-02T16:06:00.005+08:00

It seemed like i had been sitting in a jail for the whole holidays.
breakfast + lunch(brunch) + breakfast + lunch at home.
Dinner? sometimes it is solved outside.

I really enjoy myself to be at home.
When everyone is not in, hehe, this will be my hectic moment.
I would sleep the whole day long, sing when i bathe (so perasan?it only happens when no one is in) and use my computer to its limit.
My limit here means until it is jammed and work in an 'adagio' way.
it simply means laggy.
Nothing fruitful is produced so far.
i just can't help to have fun but to spend my time 'wisely' during this holidays.
Next year is going to be a though one for me and my peers.
No more fun next year, and what more i have to complete all the homework and exercises before school reopen.
what a horrible holiday this year?it is not even 2 months.
Gotta grab all the chances before it slips away.

Much looking forward for my kl trip tomorrow.
Just finished packing up everything, preparing to have a shopping spree.
Recently i have heard that many people are going to kl and singapore.
Most probably will meet up with someone there.

I am realizing that my english writing standard is deteriorating.
Blame me for my indolent lifestyle.All the vocab i had learned are missing in action.
Perhaps they are having a holiday like me too.

Alright. More updates are coming soon right after my trip.

展翅飞翔吧！

2009-11-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

很多时刻我都对着部落格发呆，
犹豫了很久，时间也好像停顿下来，久久才继续操作。
曾经好几次在脑子里打转了十分钟，决定不干了！
虽然心里有很多话想说，可是我往往在下手之前都把话吞了回去。
部落格终究是开放给公众的，总是保留不了隐私权。
如果真的要为了隐私权把它封锁，岂不是丧失了一些意义吗？

近来生活平平，只是心情起伏很大。
有时突然很烦躁，有时平静得想睡觉。
这个假期的确是个让人好好反省的机会。
踌躇了许久，反反复复地细想着，
我的将来会是怎样？
我的志愿是什么？

或许你会觉得我为何想得那么远，
但是你不能否认，
岁月不居，时节如流。
一瞬间我们即将离别，
一瞬间我们将变成不同的人，
一瞬间我们将踏入社会，
一瞬间我们将体验真正的人生。

梦想归梦想，
现实归现实。
暮然回首，我们曾经拥有过的志愿，
童年的幻想，纯真的以为，
还存在吗？

我的理想还存在着。
只要我还呼着一口气，
我绝对不能丧失实现的机会！
我有我想要的车子，
我有环游世界的渴望，
我想报答许多的恩惠，
我就是要有年轻人的热忱与野心感受世界，
这一生才不会有遗憾。

2009-11-14T22:41:00.004+08:00

I have not been blogging in ages.
My passion is fading away as something else replaced it.
I am so sure that i am one of the victim of facebook addiction disorder.(fad)

Just look at how sick i am.
I would just stare at the monitor, watching my people eat their food,clicking on some plates, some dirty lavatory and looking at my hardworking workers, toil in my very own restaurant as long as they still have a breathe.Lol.I am exaggerating again.

Alright...facebook has taken away part of my time in some way.
Here am I to sum up these few days of activities i had done.

19 Nov 2009(Thursday)

Gruesome moment was finally over.
Our exam had officially ended.
Btw,i still went to school.u know, i am a good student right?XP
though i love to sleep but i could still sleep in school.lol.
So off we went to Fcube for the second round.
Almost everyone was present.It had been a long time since we last had a big gathering.
I seriously miss you guys.=P
I had not been talking much to you all during exam period.
All of us had a whale of time there especially when it came to the moment we played mafia.
It was really exhilarating and required some psychology tactics.
Sad to say, i failed to carry out the best for my character as werewolf and witch.
People always caught me with my stiff and grim look.
So i was soon got kicked out.=( *sob sob*
It was quite fun and we accidentally extended hours.

20 Nov 2009 (Friday)

I still went to school as normal.
Oh no....today is our form 5's graduation day.
The aura was quite different than normal.
I could see camera and phones everywhere, every corner, every moment.
I know the school is getting empty next year.
Sadness filled some of their eyes, they hugged, they sobbed, they cried their eyeballs out.
I could feel something.I'm sure i am gonna miss them somehow.
This is what going to happen to us next year.
Most probably we will even miss some copious amount of oil supplement of fried food?
Btw, i still want to wish them all the best in their spm and future undertakings.

Rain was pouring down incessantly.Perhaps it knew that it was time to separate.
I was walking alone all the way back to my house despondently.
My water bottle went missing on thursday and I still returned home empty-handed.
I stood outside my house with umbrella.
The water droplets was beating on it, and i was waiting for my mum's return as i didn't bring my key.
Half an hour passed.I finally got back home with a dead tired body.

21 Nov 2009 (Saturday)

It was Joan's sweet 16th.
Happy birthday, Joan!
We went for an outing together.
As usual, we got nowhere else to go other than city square.
It was congested with people and window 7 was on sale.
Hp was having a promotion too.
Well, 3 out of 4 were screaming their lungs out when a white-masked person popped up somewhere from behind.we failed to scare him back.tsktsk.

We really enjoyed ourselves with the movie 2012.

It was awesome!
The scene was really epic and some parts were really touching.
Initially i thought i was the only one who was shedding tears, but after the movie, i just realized that jiaying and sok cheng also cried.It showed the parents' love for their children,how selfish some people are.Some moral values lie within.
alright, shall stop crapping now.
have a glance of it before you walk into the cinema.=)

Just wanna share this-Sand Dune Flips

2009-11-07T16:12:00.002+08:00

Sand Dune Flips @ Yahoo! Video

Gruesome moment imminent

2009-10-11T16:01:00.004+08:00

I hate to have myself staring into a blank page and wait for the page to load.
this is such a waste of time.
tsktsk.

Having a few days of holidays, yet it is not fruitful at all.
Though mum has forbidden me from switching on computer, but i just can't stand the jolt of playing facebook games.
I believe everyone is in a study mood now and yet i haven't even started a wee bit of it.
I just hope to stay in sc1.not craving for anything else.

Life without study will be a miserable one.
This remind me of the seminar i just went on thursday.
If you want to embark on a good career, of course you must study.
Does a roadside sweeper need to study?
be literate enough to understand the signboard?
of course not.

A fortnight more to go.
I have yet to prepare myself for the war.
Miss the chance to meet with lee min ho in singapore.
This is my greatest sacrifice.
Don't deprive my sleeping time please.
that's why i hate exams.

i will temporary stop blogging unless there is a good reason.
All the best, everyone.

2009-10-11T16:00:00.002+08:00

Japanese's Visit

2009-10-02T22:51:00.007+08:00

Our longawaited japanese's visit was over within a few hours.
It ended so fast at the moment we just got to know each other better.*sob*
I wonder what they doing now.Resting in one of the hotels in singapore? I bet so.

Well,everyone was excited and we hailed their arrival at the school's gate in the morning.
I intended to say ''welcome'' in japanese with the rest of us.
"..."
but nothing came out from my mouth.startled =.=
I just realised i had forgotten everything i had learnt to say.Good.All my efforts wasted within 2 minutes of their arrival.
Each group with 2 of us would bring one of the girl together as a buddy.

I could hardly boost my courage to speak to the girl initiallly.
She was shy.So did Joan and I.Lol.
Then a funny voice came out from my mouth.''ohayo...~''
My buddy greeted me back.*shy shy*
I beamed to her.*shy shy*
okay.enough of craps.

So after that we had some speeches, performance, fashion show and so on....
And brought them around the school compound.
I wonder if their school is much more advance and bigger.
Btw, we enjoyed ourselves with taking pictures along the way.
It was quite hard for me to communicate with them.
They only understand a little bit of english,
and i don't understand japanese at all.
I was so dumb and used gesture language instead.
We exchanged email addresses, and i realised that all of them don't know what are facebook, msn, friendster... and they use their mobile to online.
I wonder how much nagging and scolding i would get from my mum if i do so.
we are totally from different world.lol.
Never mind.i shall let the pictures continue the talk:

Cheese~

Our buddy and us.She is a pretty girl.

U-know's great fan.
cassiopia?not sure.
TVXQ is always our international language.

We share the same birthday!!!
13.01.93

I can't wait anymore

2009-10-02T02:25:00.012+08:00

I'm quite hysteria about the Japanese's arrival.=D
7-8 more hours to go.hmph.
Seriously, i rarely stay up so late because of insomnia.
Somehow i'm so excited during this hours(you can call me a nocturnal)
I am still worried about showing them how to play the fivestones game as i had not been playing it in ages though i practiced it more than 20 times today.
Hopefully my partner can replace me to do the demo.I'm totally lack of skill.

Anyway, today i really had a whale of time on board games.
Though i feel guilty for outing before exam, but we are actually celebrating the recovery of Leia.Her bad injured ankle finally get healed and she can't wait to fly.
This is my first time not hanging around in a shopping mall with friends.
Instead, we went to F-cube for some games and lunch.

This is their special-made food menu.

The first game we played.

Game cards.

We did play a few more games other than ''Jungle Speed" but i was too engrossed and nearly forgot about my phone there.LOL.

And not to forget:
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO SOK CHENG!
My dear dear smart shifu/aunty lucy...I don't wanna mention them here.wakaka.=D

We look young but you are older now.LOL.

29.9.2009.

2009-09-29T22:10:00.006+08:00

Just a quick post here.
Finally could make some time online.

Thank a million to ling ee for her souvenir from china.
It is really nice and sincere.I love it.Thanks!
Sorry for not attaching a picture of it.
I only have 10 minutes here.

And I wanna wish Fann Wong and Christopher to stay happily together.
She was once my idol when i was very young.
Really enjoy watching their wedding on tv.It was marvellous.

Tomorrow having bio class again.
Though i really love biology, but i can't figure out why I always doze off in class.
Perhaps there is something wrong with the lab(p/s:since i'm not the only one who feel sleepy)
Kind of stuffy and yet the carbon dioxide exists in the class is doubled compared to our classroom.(p/s: yawning x2) XD
Today i just found out my sleeping 'look' and 'style' from Eva.
She acted.This was what happened in class:
I was holding my tie and rocked my head backwards-> sideway -> forth, back to the middle and dropped.
AWAKE.
Eyes opened widely and trying my best to focus on what teacher teaches.
COLLAPSED again.
Used my right hand to support my head and slided my elbow rightward on the desk.
I was actually listening to teacher carefully but i didn't know that my eyes were closed.
"Sleeping Beauty!!!"
Oh god.Teacher caught me again.
She calls everyone who always sleeps in class sleeping beauty.
She should call me sleeping pig.
I was so energetic on the first day of school after holidays and i failed to confront the sleepy hormone produced.
It was really funny to see how eva and elyssa acted out it.
Everyone was so delirious today.
I really hope time can stay longer for us to laugh and have fun together.
I believe that next year we can still withstand all the pressure and continue to enjoy our school life.

Hopefully i can stay awake for the whole period tomorrow.
Fighting!=D

Another day has gone.

2009-09-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

We are only left with one day.
No more holidays afterwards until year end.

I missed another chance to watch tsunami again.
Of course not the real tsunami, it is a movie called ''The Deadly Tsunami".
No fate.No talk.
Dvd doesn't produce a good sound effect.

I just returned home from Skandereena's Halloween party.
Initially i intended to dress as a witch, but when the wardrobe was opened,nothing was suitable.=(
No black skirt,no classy top nor hat.
So i changed my mind to be a zombie.=)
At least zombie can wear jeans and t-shirt right?
Btw, qinwen still brought me the costume and i became a modern witch.=D
Thanks for everything.

The party was quite fun actually but i missed the ''costume party'' part.
The food was very tasty indeed and Shereena even hired a magician and a dj.
This is so cool wei.
She is such a lucky girl and i believe this is going to be her most memorable and sweestest 16th birthday.
I didn't even ask my parents for a party as i know the answer is certainly ''NO.''

Perhaps they are still having a whale of time during this moment.
(ps: coz her mum told me there is a disco later)
Anyway, i gotta turn in earlier tonight.
That's all for today.=)

guess who is beside me.

it is a bit too dark.

Smokey the cat shot 13 times in head, walks home

2009-09-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

MELBOURNE (AFP) - – An Australian cat named Smokey survived 13 shots to the head from an air rifle and then found his way home after what police on Tuesday called a "shocking" act of animal cruelty.

The nine-year-old moggy turned up on his owners' doorstep bleeding from his head last week, three days after he went missing from the family home in Maryborough, central Victoria.

A medical examination revealed 13 pellets lodged in his head and face. Sergeant Craig Pearse said it was remarkable Smokey had managed to get home after his ordeal.

"This is just a shocking incident where someone either working alone or in a group has shown no regard for animal life and left Smokey for dead," Pearse said.

The distressed feline had to be heavily sedated while 11 of the pellets were removed, he said, adding that Smokey was expected to recover.

Min Ho's trip to singapore has been delayed.

2009-09-23T00:44:00.003+08:00

Why must they delay it?!?!
Tsktsk.
Tell me why.
Tell me why.
Tell me why.
*sob sob*

one day trip

2009-09-22T14:51:00.004+08:00

I was all ready to walk out of house and head to the nearest bus-stop to halt a maju 221.
Dad was repairing neighbour's faulty pipe so I decided not to wait for him anymore.
Going to meet my friends either on bus or in cs anyway.

Mum stopped me in time.
''Tell your friend that you are following us to singapore.''
''But I have promised them.''
''I don't care.You have been to cs thousands of times.''
Speechless.=(

Fine.
Sometimes we just can't protest for ourselves.
Parents are always right.yeah.

Dad didn't drive us to Singapore but instead we went to Malacca together with my grandparents.
The 2 hours long journey seemed to be 2 years long.
We squeezed at the back seat like sardine and a wee bit of movement can induce a massive vibration.Even my younger brother also kept complaining to my dad and ask for an Estima.
Even child nowadays knows how to enjoy life.
Pardon me for having a big butt.I knew everyone's butt was going to burst.

Well, traffic jam was everywhere, no matter you are on a highway, at the toll station(including touch and go), in Malacca, every town every corner every road.
The car would not budge and just stuck there for a long time.
Btw, the jam allowed us to cast a longer look at those shophouses, looking at how the people work and those valuable antiques.

Though I'm a hainanese, but i only get to eat hainanese chicken rice twice.
The shop is always teemed with hundred/thousand of people, not even a little space for us to queue.The people are so willing to wait up to 3 hours just to have a taste of it, and the queue extends alongside the big road.
Malacca is not only famous with chicken rice.=)
We were lucky enough to enjoy the palatable food there, especially satay celup!!!
oh, that is my favourite man.Simple and delicious.
Just throw in whatever you want, wait for it to cook and finally chew it down slowly to taste the savoury.I'm drooling again once i thought of it.

Oh ya, i nearly forgot that the japanese are coming on 2 oct.
It's too bad that i couldn't bring home the satay celup and treat them.
Really looking forward to their arrival.
Hope that Joan and I can get a cute guy.haha.
That's it.
Gotta sleep soon.=)

2009-09-21T02:21:00.007+08:00

准备，
1，2，3！
起跑！

大家都已经站在战场上了。
哨子一吹，
每个人都以最好的潜能，
发挥到极限，
往前方冲刺，
顾不了身边的同伴，
顾不了任何的绊脚石，
只懂得自己不能慢下一步，
哪怕只是一步就会拖累自己，
正如差之毫厘，缪以千里，
心中的恐慌与焦急正开始燃烧着。

而我，
连准备都还没，
怎么迎头赶上呢？

我还在茫然地摸索着，
还在彷徨中徘徊，
还在叹息着，
何时才能走出我的梦，
踏踏实实地过生活。

我还在寻找真正的自己。
迷失的我，别再闹了。

Sigh.

2009-09-18T00:12:00.004+08:00

Peka was finally completed.Phew.

0.1ml difference between the first result and the second result.=)

I admit that i don't like peka.But I do love experiments especially when there are spark produced and various changes in colours of the solutions.It is fairly impossible for us to find those unique colours in our colour pencils nor water colour.
I'm always amazed by the outcome.(p/s: because I'm a jakun sometimes)

This was the first time i entered chemistry lab punctually and even earlier than teacher.

Swinging on the chair and chit-chat with the others are always my favorite things to do.

I was quite energetic today and considered NOT BLUR AT ALL.=D (p/s:please believe in me just for this time.LOL)

The apparatus was completely set up in a jiffy.yippie.=D

Hold on.....the pipette filler was not working again.Gosh.=(
It's alright.Sucking is much faster.My partner and I are well-experienced because we faced the same problem during our trial.

I sucked.
I fell into a trance for a little moment.(a little moment that turned me topsy-turvy)

Something burnt my lips
....then my tongue.
Regaining consciousness.
Omg!
The first reaction:Rushed to the basin and rinse my mouth in no time.
Forgot about the pipette forgot about the potassium hydroxide and forgot about my partner.

The poor pipette scattered into pieces.
Eyes fell on me.
It spoilt my partner's mood and my mood as well.
Great job.

Luckily the potassium hydroxide provided today was a dilute one and not detrimental at all.
My partner was speechless.
My confident was drastically beaten.
I really can't figure out why am I always spoiling something though i do it conscientiously especially when it comes to an important task?

16 years of life,uncountable failures.
Anyway, we should learn from mistakes and failures right?
...

2009-09-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

Chagrin=(

2009-09-10T19:21:00.006+08:00

I should have grab my chance to do a post on 9.9.09.(it is once in a lifetime)
But i have forgotten about it.Argh.

Today seems to be a not-so-lucky day for me.
First thing in the morning, i awoke in the bus, took up my bag and shaked my body a little bit to adjust my bag.
''Ouch!''my knocked my head to the ceiling of the bus and my love-shaped hairpin went deformed into a ''broken heart-shaped''.Luckily it was made up of iron but not plastic and i managed to reshape it in school.
Then i stepped on my own shoe, making my shoe looks even more shabby then before as 60% of the strip at the side of the shoe came off.

Well, this is no big deal.
Just take a few more careful steps to ensure i won't worsen the condition.

The meeting was finally over and I heaved a sigh of relief.
I still cannot conquer the phobia of speaking in front of public.
Once i'm facing a crowd, and most of their eyes fall on me, waiting for me to speak,
my mind would just turn blackout.
And i will start to stumble, murmuring to myself, hoping that they can't really hear what i said.
I would have flee away if i could.I really can't speak well.
Pardon me for having no guts.

Back home, checked out my phone for messages.
1 out of 4 thrilled me.
I could feel cold sweat drenching my shirt.
4 marks to pass my grade 8 practical.

I suddenly had a jolt to practice my scale....wait....perhaps my mum will doubt why am i practicing scale out of blue.
My intuition was to ring PeiYu.
Though i had told her how am i going to keep it dark from my parents and so on,
i introspect.I look into myself.

I can't blame anyone but me.
I boost my courage, approach to my mum.
"mum, if i tell you a bad news now, would you like to hear?if you really want to hear, please do not scold me kay?"

Then i saw the disappointment in her eyes.
Looking at a useless child who have thrown their hard-earned money into the deep sea.
We were speechless.

''Perhaps god want me to taste the failure and improve myself.''
''I am going to work anyway.''
I paced to my room.started to play piano.
No point practicing it now.

Deep in my heart, i always know how much i have been craving for.
How much time i have wasted on school activities.
How much efforts my parents made had been drained of.
It is my fault.

Life is just like a casino.
We can't be lucky at all time.
Sometimes even if we put in some of the efforts, it still doesn't help.
They want a ''ALL-IN''.
100% effort won't promise a failure.
Fighting ba!

101th post.

2009-08-26T01:50:00.008+08:00

I could hardly wake up by myself nor with the help of alarm clock.
Even normal school days, i don't know how many times have I been wishing/hoping(useless daydreaming) to not go to school...

I had not been dreaming well recently though this is a holiday...=(
I am always awaken by the noise's' contributed by my neighbour's house renovation workers.
Knocking...hammering...clanking...(sound like breaking down the house)
And worse come to worst, though i ignore the noise and continued my sleep,
my dream was overturned, and i thought the ceilings in my bedroom were falling down and i nearly shouted out ''mummy'' for help.
Luckily i'm not having spm trial next week or else i would move out for this whole week instead of storming into the house and demand the workers to stop it.

Holidays.
Form 4 is '' ~~HONEYMOON~~ year.
and it is a ''MUST-FINISH-HOMEWORK HOLIDAY''.
We only can grab this 'rare' opportunity to catch up what we had missed out, complete all the homework given and so on.

I still didn't manage my time again.
Most of my time is wasted on my computer,
especially games.
I'm too addictive to games.
Fairly less to books.
But reading will subdue me one day.
Sooner or Later.
Happy holidays, my friends.=D